breaking free

Morning everyone. Gising pa rin ako.

Ang hirap pag moody, lagi nalang nag-iisip, kaya palagi ring puyat, haha. But seriously, this moodswing is a torture. Or is it depression? I don’t know. But it’s a wreck. Imbis na maging masaya ako ngayon dahil December (ang buwan ng mga pagsasaya) eh nalulungkot ako. Yes, nalulungkot din naman ako kahit Kristiyano ako. Continue reading

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a feast and a funeral

I love the smell of sampaguita. When I, my brothers and my sister were just children, we have a large shrub of sampaguita grown in our front yard, just beside the wooden gate and with all the other trees, and flowering and vegetable plants. The white flowers’ sweet scent would perfume the whole yard, especially in the early morning and on the month of May.

sampaguita (image from Google)

Today, we’ve lost all our trees and shrubs in the front yard, except for one that’s still standing at the backyard. And also today, it seems sampaguita could just be seen on the streets being sold outside churches, worn as garlands by graduates and for guests, and is placed on religious symbols. Continue reading

the glory in loneliness

dolor = “pain, suffering”

Language… has created the word “loneliness” to express the pain of being alone. And it has created the word “solitude” to express the glory of being alone.

-Paul Tillich

Late last month, I and two of my friends (with one of their friends, also ^^) got the chance to sit down and have a talk about ourselves– our lives, studies, problems, and the like, because we haven’t done it for a quite a while then. So the issue of temperaments and humorism was brought up. Nads said she’s an extrovert, and that she knew (or sensed..or discerned) I was an introvert (which is true). David said he’s an introvert too, but I told him he’s more likely an extravert (a mix of introversion and extroversion). Nads said she’d thought she’s surrounded with introverts; I, on the other had, with extroverts (ahahaha~). But the whole chat was about having the feeling of sadness in spite the truth that we are believers now. Continue reading

notes of humorism

got from Google

Yes, I’m a melancholic person.

And yes again, I’m also an introvert. And a choleric one.

I’ve gotten the chance to know about the Four Humours, or the Four Temperaments developed by Hippocrates (and yes again, I’ve done my research).

Maybe for many, depression is treated  as something really super negative, but when I stumbled upon that quote (image), I was quite thinking it was right.

Well it’s just my simple shoutout! to all because I notice I wasn’t able to update my blog these past few weeks.

I’m an introvert, and I accept it, because God made me like this. I know it will be put into good use for His will sooner or later.

to be continued… (?)