a blessing or a lesson?

8612858076_47564f0217_zThere’s a quote that says, “We meet people for a reason. Either they’re a blessing or a lesson.” But it can also be both: That person’s a BLESSING because he/she has been a channel of God’s blessings, either tangible or not; that he/she becomes a blessing to you because of the love and care you receive from that person. Then, a LESSON also, for knowing someone who differs from you can make or break you; knowing and being with him/her can be God’s instrument of discipline and refinement.
We need each other. We aren’t perfect people. We are all broken people, but as one Casting Crowns’ song says, we can be broken together, that we may be whole by knowing more of God’s love through our relationships with other people.

You could be both a blessing and a lesson to somebody.

Bitter???

The feels of this movie…

Anong araw ba ngayon?? Friday the 13th… Kaya pala.. Bisperas. Kaya pala feeling ewan ako ngayon.

Feeling ko itong Valentines Day na ito talaga eh sensationalized nalang. Bakit kelangan sa Feb 14 sila magdate, eh napakaraming araw naman sa buong taon? Mabuti kung holiday yan at walang pasok sa school/work.

Tapos parang walang ‘say’ ang mga single tuwing ganyang araw.. Balewala ang mga wisdom, ang mga realizations, ang mga lessons sa buhay na nais ipaabot sa mundo personally or through social media– kasi single ka! Lalo na yung NBSB. Parang wala kang karapatang magsalita at magbigay ng opinyon at dunong tungkol sa love and relationships.

Naaalala ko tuloy yung may nagsabi sa akin dati na mas lalo kong mauunawaan ang pag-ibig ng Diyos pag nakilala ko na ang ‘the one’ ko na bigay ng Lord. Mas lalo ko tuloy naiisip na through being in a relationship lamang eh mas maiintindihan ko kung ano talaga ang love and being in love. Gusto kong maniwala na mas mamahalin ko nga ang Lord pag nagkaroon ako ng ‘other half.’ Eh paano naman kung wala pa? Does it mean hindi ko pa talaga ganun kamahal si Lord?…

Oo masakit naman talaga na maging single pa rin since birth. Pero para sa akin mas masakit yung makita ang mga kapwa ko Kristyano na hindi tinatanggap ang mga naishe-share ko about love and relationships, dahil nga kasi I’m still single. Mas gusto pa rin nila yung understanding na turo ng kamunduhan or galing sa secular sources.

Because of that, I am disliking this ‘season of love’ more and more with all of my heart. Bitter na kung bitter ang isipin ng iba, pero yan ang saloobin ko. Alam kong may nagmahal din naman sa’keng lalaki, pero takot nga lang at torpe. At pihikan ako at alam kong hindi pa ngayon ang tamang panahon para pumasok ako sa isang relasyon. Dahil andami ko pang gustong gawin sa buhay… Gusto ko pa mag-aral ulit. Gusto ko pa mag-aral ng English course or magmajor sa English; gusto ko pang mag-aral ng Biblical Hebrew. Gusto ko pa magturo ng Bible studies. Gusto ko pa magkaron ng business. That is why while I’m still single I am desiring to glorify God with all of my body, soul, and spirit. Yan ang nais kong ituro sa ibang mga single din at mas bata sa akin, pero hindi yan ang gusto nilang marinig. Ang gusto nilang marinig ay kung paano manligaw o paano mapapaibig ang taong yun. Ayaw nilang marinig ang tungkol sa ‘tamang paghihintay’ or ‘perfect time’ ng Lord. Yan ang ayaw natin generally dahil gusto nating masunod ang sarili natin. But as CS Lewis said:

Ayaw mong pakialaman ka ng ibang tao regarding your love life? Fine! Pero walang makapipigil sa Lord na pakialamanan ka lalo na dyan, dahil it involves your heart. We humans tend to learn the hard way. But God only wants the best for us. He doesn’t want us to get messed up because of our disobedience. That’s why He teaches us to wait and trust Him, that there is a perfect mate made for us, just like how Eve was created perfectly for Adam (Genesis 2:18-22). God is preparing us as He is also preparing that person who will be ‘a helper comparable’ to us. In God’s perfect time, according to His will.

Unconditional love

I still don’t understand the concept of love, even though I’ve learned how to love, care, & value others more than myself..

Maybe it’s the very essence of love.. To give and show love unconditionally, even if you don’t receive the same amount in return..

I may not fully understand what love is, but I know the Author and God of love.. To know Him is to know what love truly is.

These were my tweets days ago…  Weeks ago I’ve been troubled by a Facebook comment to my post regarding love, and it still is making me ask deeper questions about love of all kinds. It’s as if my whole idea of God’s love wants to be diminished, because it’s been challenged by that comment. Basta yun na yun; mahirap i-explain, mahaba eh.. Hehe. (Maybe sometime later I will blog about it..)

Pero napansin ko sa sarili ko nitong mga nakaraan puro ganyan ang mga tanong ko, mga status or thoughts or realizations ko. Maybe it’s a romantic love, or brotherly one. Or just familial. Continue reading

social bits overload

nograyareas-versionSecond day of social media fast. So tempting to open my accounts. Argh. When my boredom strikes, there’s like a want to always open my Facebook and Twitter. This fasting I can liken to when we did a Daniel fasting. At that time, it’s so tempting to eat rice and meat. But I believe that through this, God would give me more grace and strength, and the wisdom that I haven’t known before.

The reason I’m doing this (I’m in a 3-day fast) is because I am like bombarded by so many, so much information, details, and nuisances. I need to de-clutter my mind. And it’s a matter of devotion and self-control. Continue reading

memoirs of my (pre)summer..

Okaaaay. So I’m super late in this kind of post.. There’s a LOT that had happened the past weeks (or month?). It’s June now– start of classes for students, rainy season (or is that storm and flood??). But my summer this year is memorable. Thank You Lord! :D

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there were baby crabs surfacing from those holes.. cute!

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