Unconditional love

I still don’t understand the concept of love, even though I’ve learned how to love, care, & value others more than myself..

Maybe it’s the very essence of love.. To give and show love unconditionally, even if you don’t receive the same amount in return..

I may not fully understand what love is, but I know the Author and God of love.. To know Him is to know what love truly is.

These were my tweets days ago…  Weeks ago I’ve been troubled by a Facebook comment to my post regarding love, and it still is making me ask deeper questions about love of all kinds. It’s as if my whole idea of God’s love wants to be diminished, because it’s been challenged by that comment. Basta yun na yun; mahirap i-explain, mahaba eh.. Hehe. (Maybe sometime later I will blog about it..)

Pero napansin ko sa sarili ko nitong mga nakaraan puro ganyan ang mga tanong ko, mga status or thoughts or realizations ko. Maybe it’s a romantic love, or brotherly one. Or just familial. Continue reading

No Fear in Love

Having a spiritual child makes you accountable, and lets you learn about accountability. It also gives you understanding that there’s more to the ministry you’ve committed yourself into. It’s also about relationships.

–Gray

“Bunga” kasi ako ng mentorship, and gusto ko talagang may ma-mentor. That’s why I’m really eager to teach young people about the Bible, Bible-reading, and things I’ve learned from the Bible and from my mentor. And now, maybe it was really God’s plan, that He gave me spiritual children. They were eight, but three of them I consider really as my own kids. And they’re boys. Oh boy. Alam mo yun, wala pa nga kong sariling mga anak, pero mukhang “OJT” ko na yung mga nararanasan ko with them. But I thank God, because I know that all those things are really like training and discipline for me– to train, discipline, correct, refine my character as His child, and as a human being as well. Continue reading

self-check.. is there love?

Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal. 2 And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3 And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing…13 And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love. (1 Corinthians 13:1-3, 13)

 

verse 8

verse 8

Still Checking

Still pondering about God’s revelation on kuya Randy (blog)… Still checking within myself the spirit of Pharisee, spirit of legalism. Kadalasan, dahil sa kagustuhan kong gawin ang tama, by the rules, ay nagiging legalistic na ako. Minsan wala ng love. But what will abide is LOVE. What will still remain LOVE. It is how we’ve connected to people through Christ’s LOVE that will remain in the hearts of others.

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self-check (part 1)

Hi all.

Tis my first post for this year… been very busy these past months because of work (shifting schedules). Mamaya papasok ulit (panggabi). But after four weeks it will all change.. I think I will be going back to rest again.

As usual, kahit madaling araw na ay nagsusulat pa rin, gumagawa ng blog… really wanna update myself here, and wanna share some of my sentiments. Ngayon andami ko na namang katanungan.. medyo nagiging conflicted din ako sa sarili ko.

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Checking Myself

checklist...

checklist…

After reading kuya Randy’s blog, chinecheck ko na rin ang sarili ko kung masyado na rin ba akong “extreme,” or parang nagiging Pharisee. Parang nagiging self-righteous. His blog narrates how God’s command to him is also similar when God told Hosea to take a wife of harlotry (prostitution). Continue reading

don’t wanna lose myself..

5:34 AM.

It’s Saturday, and dapat tulog na ko ngayon, dahil kararating ko lang kaninang 3 AM. Night shift ako this month, and next month day shift ulit. Haay, I so miss the sunshine. I so miss attending weeknight church gatherings. I miss everything I was doing back then before I was hired, pati nung pang-umaga pa ko. Nakakapagod man yung after ng work ay deretso sa church para gampanan ang ministry responsibilities, pero yun ang narealize ko nung naging panggabi na ko — ngayon ko yun mas naappreciate. Every day ng shift ko ay nami-miss ko ang mga church activities. Mas lalo kong na-mimiss ang presence ng Lord sa buhay ko. Feeling ko kasi detached ako.

When we finally have known our true identity– that is, children of God— we eagerly, zealously yearn to that day when we can be in our true Home, and to be with Him forever. Kahit na gumala-gala tayo at magpaikot-ikot dito sa mundo, huwag dapat mawala sa puso natin ang tunay nating pagkatao– our real identity is as God’s children, a citizen of Heaven, co-heir of Christ. And that’s what I’m always bringing to myself, because the world can make me lose myself. It can corrupt me. That’s why everyday prayer and meditating on God’s word is essential to His children, our great weapons whenever we go out into the world.

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->because I can’t think of a nice title for this random post of mine..

Ngayon lang ulit ako magbo-blog in Tagalog (or Taglish).  Madalas ko ‘tong gawin dati sa Multiply account ko. Puro kwento lang. Medyo nawalan na nga dati ng silbi yung journal ko kasi dun lang ako nagkekwento ng mga kung anu-anong nangyayari sa buhay ko, lalo na nung college student pa ko.

Hmm. Feeling ko ngayon hindi ako basta-basta makapagshare online. Continue reading