The laws in Moses’ Teachings were added to increase the failure. But where sin increased, God’s kindness [grace] increased even more. -Romans 5:20, GW
My understanding in this is, though how great our sins are, God’s grace and forgiveness are greater still. When we sin, we can think that we are unforgivable, or that our sins are beyond forgiveness. But we are constantly reminded that His grace is greater than our guilt. Always.
But, the apostle Paul clearly said in the next chapter: “What should we say then? Should we continue to sin so that God’s kindness will increase? That’s unthinkable! As far as sin is concerned, we have died. So how can we still live under sin’s influence?” (6:1-2)
We must not treat sin so lightly just because there’s an assurance that we can be forgiven after all. Let’s not take for granted God’s forgiveness and kindness on us. We must always use that chance for our lives to be changed by God’s power and His Spirit.
“I’m the least of the apostles. I’m not even fit to be called an apostle because I persecuted God’s church.” (1 Corinthians 15:9)
I felt the same way too– that I’m the least of all, that I don’t deserve to be God’s minister because of my sins and how I always fail Him because of my weaknesses.
Paul might had felt that he’s not even worthy to be one of the apostles, or even to serve the LORD, but he knew that because of His grace he became a new man, and that grace was not wasted on him: “But God’s kindness made me what I am, and that kindness was not wasted on me” (v.10).
Do we sometimes feel so low and unworthy because of our past? If we have come to God and asked Him for forgiveness, there’s assurance of a new life. Though we may feel or think small in God’s kingdom, He qualifies us because we have God’s approval (righteousness) through faith in Jesus Christ (Romans 3:22) . Paul also felt it because of his past, of what he’s done against the church, but by God’s grace he was renewed, and served Him and committed his life to Him.
No matter how great or deep our sins may be, greater and deeper is God’s love, so let’s not waste His grace and the many chances He’s giving us, and use the time with obedience to His call and will.